Don't Worry, Be Happy

Proverbs 29:18 KJV

[18] Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.

There's this joke at work that I have to either be a crackhead or have some magic happy pills I'm holding out on because people can't be as crazy joyful and excitable, enthusiastic about life, as I am.   

I tried to commit suicide a lot.  Something would always come up that wouldn't let me. I don't know if you know what it is like to be so consumed with gloom that you feel like death is your only option, but I do.  I have lived in darkness, walked in darkness, I once literally forgot how to smile.  I literally could not smile because it had been so long that my facial muscles forgot how.  I still have scars from all the times I cut myself just to feel.  I truly believed I was too far gone, nothing could ever make my life right, I was dealt a crappy hand and that was all there was to it.  The Bible says that blood is life.  But back then, I just wanted to pour it out.

Grace, tenderness, and mercy do exist.  And they are available to all.

Luke 5:36-39 KJV

[36] And he spake also a parable unto them; No man putteth a piece of a new garment upon an old; if otherwise, then both the new maketh a rent, and the piece that was taken out of the new agreeth not with the old. [37] And no man putteth new wine into old bottles; else the new wine will burst the bottles, and be spilled, and the bottles shall perish. [38] But new wine must be put into new bottles; and both are preserved. [39] No man also having drunk old wine straightway desireth new: for he saith, The old is better.

2 Corinthians 5:17 KJV

[17] Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

I don't need drugs or alcohol or fake love to be happy.  Those are all things that were put here by an enemy to distract us from Yah.  All we have to do is walk through the door.

John 10:9 KJV

[9] I am the door: by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture.